There's always something very alien about starting a new job and the build up to it always leaves us with tonnes of questions. What will it be like? Will my colleagues be challenging? How well will I understand everything? These are all questions that were racing through my mind before I started my new job. And they're all very important to me.
For as long as I can remember I have been an overthinker, blowing up situations to seem WAY worse than they actually are. This always got me in a terrible state with myself and the people I care about. So, naturally, when I was offered a job interview at FINALLY I was super nervous. Not because I was scared or didn’t want the job, but I had to face the interview stage, which in my mind, is psychological torture. What do I say? Do I look professional? Don't talk about this. Don't talk about that. It's almost always far too much for my brain to handle.
This was all VERY quickly resolved as soon as the interview started. Ella and Julie appeared on my screen, looking all sophisticated and excited to see me. These two friendly faces soon became comfortable in my mind and I started to get super excited with working with them.
A couple of weeks passed before my first day came along. Through those two weeks, I was talking to myself, making up conversations that were never going to happen. Introducing myself to the wall over and over again thinking that I was never going to be ready for a REAL job.
The morning of the first day I had crazy anxiety sickness due to overthinking and was so scared to meet the rest of the team. I was making sure I remembered the door code so I don't embarrass myself in front of literally no one if I got it wrong and checking my bag three times over to make sure I had pens and notepads etc. (as if they wouldn't have them available?!)
My first day was nothing like I pictured it. It was the complete opposite. As soon as you walk in, you get this awesome family dynamic between everyone as if they've known each other for ages. As if they're all just brothers and sisters.
This. Was. Insane.
Not ever had I felt an almost instant belonging to a job even if I didn't understand a single thing coming out of their mouths! They all talked with such understanding, with no hierarchy, no judgement and no hatred towards the new person walking into their dynamic.
There is always so much fear and anxiety tied to starting new jobs because it can be such a drastic change in every way possible. Never knowing fully what the result will be makes it even worse. But since this new change in my life, I have definitely grown more confident with work and being able to communicate with complete strangers. At FINALLY the team is so strong and caring there is no way of feeling alone or stupid, you always have them there for whatever help you need.
Given that I never had a “proper job” before, I think I hit the jackpot. Work that I understand quickly, colleagues that are more like siblings and the chance to spend time in a creative industry. It couldn't have gone better for me the first time around.
So, at the end of it all, I think I will soon be able to call myself part of the FINALLY family.